There are people having babies right around the time I would be due left and right.
At first, I was so thankful that none of my friends were pregnant so that I could avoid what hundreds of women seem to post about on TB. Having pregnant friends/relatives/coworkers EVERYWHERE!
Well, now I can’t seem to get away from it and for some reason this week I’ve been having a bigger problem with it. I thought I was doing okay and past everything now that Dre and I are on the road to TTC (trying to conceive) again, but it seems like it’s hard to get by that feeling that, “I SHOULD be having a baby in September, I SHOULD be this far along, I SHOULD be doing such and such this summer.”
Anyways, half of Dre’s co-workers are pregnant and not only that, but most of them are due a couple of weeks before I would have been due. So, I don’t really want to hear about it most of the time especially when Dre comes home and announces to me that his co-worker is now 23 weeks along. Why I needed to know that is just beyond me.
This morning, I had a business meeting and I noticed one the presenters was pregnant. She told us she was due September 23rd. Really! I’m happy for her, but it seems like I just can’t get away from these August/September due dates.
So needless to say that with all of that and the fact that half the blogs I read announced they were expecting around the time I would have announced it has made me a little depressed and down.
I’m gonna end my ranting now. I think it makes me come across as bitter and angry, but some days that’s how I feel. I guess that before I had a miscarriage I didn’t really understand when people would talk about being bitter and angry about the situation/people/comments/etc. It’s hard to understand if you haven’t been there yourself I guess.